I honestly don't know. You ever get that feeling where you have something to say, but you just don't even know what it is? Not like you can't find the words, but the topic? Yeah. That's why I'm up at 1:30 am without anything to say.
I just watched LWCC's commitment service online. I love that we have such a focus on volunteering this year. Its always been a big deal in my family. It started off because my mother had to volunteer in the nursery if I was to be in it. She then proceeded to make my dad join a ministry, and then myself and my sister. And I will forever be grateful for it. If it wasn't for volunteering, I do not know where I would be. I'm guessing I wouldn't be volunteering 2 more months at an orphanage in Mexico! And there is no other place I could imagine being right now.
There are so many more things I can think of that I love about Mexico, but I must remember that this would never have happened to me if it hadn't been for that forced "volunteerism" when I was younger. If I hadn't learned then that it was much more rewarding to give and bless, than it was to sit back and take, I never would have come here. I never would have met Stefi and learned my ability to make the most awesome faces, or been there to tell her she was beautiful, or hold her when she cried. I wouldn't have been here to comfort her brothers when she was kidnapped, or known to pray for her. I wouldn't have cared that Lino preached a service at church and then went and prayed for people and they got healed? Or that he got the second highest score on the big test in the nation, AGAIN (Way to go!), or seen the change that has taken place over the six years I've been coming down here.
I guess I'm writing about, well, why you should give your life over to God. I'm not talking about being saved, though that is pretty key, I'd say. I'm talking about handing over the reins. Letting Him make your decisions. Trust. Its a terrifying subject for many, but really? Who would you rather have making your decisions? The One who has the answers, a plan, and created all, or yourself, who, if you're anything like me, is inexperienced, often wrong, and in general, flawed? Personally, I think the only wise choice I've ever made was to give my decisions over to Him. Not that I don't take them back ever, or frequently, but truly, its the best decision I've made.
Because, if I hadn't, I honestly believe that I would have gone my whole life without being called a Squirrel Face. And who doesn't want that?
Thanks for reading guys! It means a lot.